This past weekend, we went to Knoxville to visit Ben, Carrie and baby Luke. It wasn't as odd I thought it might be to see them with a baby. They seemed to be settled into a pattern of existence. Both seem a bit stressed and growing into their new roles: Ben as sole provider and Carrie as a full-time mom.
Watching them has escalated the already mixed emotions into my head. I'm happy for them, but I also feel somewhat angry and somewhat jealous at the same time. Welcome to my screwed up head.
I think I feel this way because them having a baby symbolizes another decade in our lives: the decade of building a family.
I'll be 30 in December. Ugh. How scary is that. Are kids the next step in my life? What if it isn't? When is the right time? What if I wait too long and can't have kids? What if kids ruin my relationship with Brandon? What if kids aren't what I want, but what I think I want or what other people think I want?
I'm driving myself crazy with these questions and thoughts. I need a new fixation. Perhaps I'll go back to politics...
On a happier note, Jane and I are headed to Key West on Sunday for a week of girl time. I can't wait!
Monday, September 29, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
The Land of the Sun
Brandon and I spent Thursday through Monday in sunny Arizona. It was a great trip, but a bit of a whirlwind. (We're saving the bulk of Brandon's vacation for Hawaii in February, so we only had a few days for him to burn.)
Thursday night we got settled into the family condo in Phoenix (it is awesome!) and then went out with Steve and Roy. We met up with some of their friends at local Mexican restaurant and noshed on Margaritas and nachos then went to Corbin's for a tasty dinner.
Friday we slept in then took advantage of Steve and Roy's cabana...aka backyard. They have a pool and hot tub, so we laid out until we were hot, got in the pool, hot tub, repeat. You get the idea.
That night we road the bus to downtown Phoenix to watch the Reds take on the Diamondbacks. Unfortunately, we lost but it was still fun to see a ballpark other than our own. I enjoyed watched the DONKEY (Adam Dunn)strike out. HA!
Here are a few photos:
Saturday we headed north to Flagstaff for a 6.7 mile hike in the Coconino National Forrest: the Bear Jaw/Abineau Loop. The trail goes to the base of the Humphrey's Peak, the highest point in Arizona. When you turn your back on the peak, you can see the Grand Canyon 90 miles away. Pretty amazing. We saw large alpine tree groves, avalanche damage and beautiful wildflowers. Here are a few pics:
That night, we stayed in Williams at the Holiday Inn so Brandon could watch the OSU game. We ate Mexican--again--at a local joint then headed to bed early.
Sunday we got up early and drove to the Grand Canyon. This was the first time we hiked down into the canyon. We didn't have a whole lot of time, so we did the six miles round trip on South Kaibab to Skeleton Point and three miles on the Bright Angel trail. Both were amazing. Next time we're definitely going to build in time to hike all the way to the canyon bottom.
Here are a few of my favorite pics from the hikes:
There was a huge storm that left most of Columbus, Dayton and Cincinnati without power while we were gone. Fortunately, our power was back on by the time we got back. we spent our first night back cleaning up sticks from our yard. Fortunately. our trees and roof weren't damaged.
Thursday night we got settled into the family condo in Phoenix (it is awesome!) and then went out with Steve and Roy. We met up with some of their friends at local Mexican restaurant and noshed on Margaritas and nachos then went to Corbin's for a tasty dinner.
Friday we slept in then took advantage of Steve and Roy's cabana...aka backyard. They have a pool and hot tub, so we laid out until we were hot, got in the pool, hot tub, repeat. You get the idea.
That night we road the bus to downtown Phoenix to watch the Reds take on the Diamondbacks. Unfortunately, we lost but it was still fun to see a ballpark other than our own. I enjoyed watched the DONKEY (Adam Dunn)strike out. HA!
Here are a few photos:
Saturday we headed north to Flagstaff for a 6.7 mile hike in the Coconino National Forrest: the Bear Jaw/Abineau Loop. The trail goes to the base of the Humphrey's Peak, the highest point in Arizona. When you turn your back on the peak, you can see the Grand Canyon 90 miles away. Pretty amazing. We saw large alpine tree groves, avalanche damage and beautiful wildflowers. Here are a few pics:
That night, we stayed in Williams at the Holiday Inn so Brandon could watch the OSU game. We ate Mexican--again--at a local joint then headed to bed early.
Sunday we got up early and drove to the Grand Canyon. This was the first time we hiked down into the canyon. We didn't have a whole lot of time, so we did the six miles round trip on South Kaibab to Skeleton Point and three miles on the Bright Angel trail. Both were amazing. Next time we're definitely going to build in time to hike all the way to the canyon bottom.
Here are a few of my favorite pics from the hikes:
There was a huge storm that left most of Columbus, Dayton and Cincinnati without power while we were gone. Fortunately, our power was back on by the time we got back. we spent our first night back cleaning up sticks from our yard. Fortunately. our trees and roof weren't damaged.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Bleary Friday
Well, I'm blogging at lunch because my co-worker bailed on going out. We were supposed to go to Sitwell's for BLTs, so I didn't bring my lunch or my gym bag. Oh well. I got 1/2 a panini and am now captive in my office.
It's rainy and yucky out today, but we need the rain so I won't complain too much. Hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow because it's time for the annual Weenie Roast at Shauna and Joe's. That should be fun!
In other news, I finished the Twilight series again and devoured the fourth book, Breaking Dawn. I'm happy with the ending, though it was a bit too "happily ever after" to be realistic. Then again, we are talking about vampires and werewolves, so how "realistic" can you be? I now eagerly await the first movie, which is slated for later this year.
I also enjoyed this political ad from the Barack Obama Campaign thoroughly. It's clever:
For those of you who are sick of the political jabbing already, check out the Republicrats on MSNBC.com. It's amusing:
http://originals.msn.com/republicrats/
It's rainy and yucky out today, but we need the rain so I won't complain too much. Hopefully it doesn't rain tomorrow because it's time for the annual Weenie Roast at Shauna and Joe's. That should be fun!
In other news, I finished the Twilight series again and devoured the fourth book, Breaking Dawn. I'm happy with the ending, though it was a bit too "happily ever after" to be realistic. Then again, we are talking about vampires and werewolves, so how "realistic" can you be? I now eagerly await the first movie, which is slated for later this year.
I also enjoyed this political ad from the Barack Obama Campaign thoroughly. It's clever:
For those of you who are sick of the political jabbing already, check out the Republicrats on MSNBC.com. It's amusing:
http://originals.msn.com/republicrats/
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